Email to my sister...

Subject:mom got in an accident today

Letter:

She's okay as far as I know, but she got bumped good enough knock her glasses off her face and then she hit the truck infront her to where it broke the grill off her car.

After this happened, I think her and the other two vehicles stopped on the side of I-80, mom got her bearings, and the guy that originally hit her decided to take off. I don't know exactly what happened or in the order in happened, but mom was worried about her ins rates going up, so I guess after that guy took off mom decided to leave as well. She drove home, and JR said that when she came up the driveway the rear bumper was dragging on the ground (he had to bunjee it back up), and her front grill was missing.

She won't report it to insurance, who knows if she's hurt (hip replacement less than a year ago) or the guy/gal in the mail truck is okay...but apparently as mom was driving home after all this, she seen the guy that hit her on the side of the road. Of course at this point she can't stop and hold him accountable because not only did HE leave the scene of an accident, SHE DID TOO.

This is all 2nd hand from JR as of about 10pm...mom got off at noon and took a route home that she doesn't normally take (yeah, thats another story), got lost, got in a multi car accident, comes home, gets in the other car (she's recked twice), and GOES TO WORK at UPS as if nothing happened.

She got off at 11, I tried to call her, but of course she wouldn't answer.

She makes me soo mad and I just want to talk to her to make sure she's okay. But I also want to tell her that I think she's such as DUMBASS. And especially for not calling me. I have never loved someone so much and wanted to choke them so badly as I do with her right now.

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(audio- owl city - meteor shower)


I had such a great time with my mom on Saturday. She was so there with me, and wanted me there, and loved that I was there. And I loved that I was there too.

I don't want to lose her right after I've found her.

I don't want her to die like N's dad did. We spent Memorial Day with his parents, got wonderful pictures of N's dad with my little girl on the tractor, teaching her how to drive at 4 years old.

2 days later he's dead.

That cannot happen with my mom. It will crush me! One minute there, the next minute gone. I can't take that again.

Especially after how far we've come in our relationship. I used to despise her, now I look at her and I see into a mirror.

She's my MOM. I can judge her until the cows come home, but the truth is that I'm just like her. I understand what she does, cause I'm just like her.

If she dies, I will lose what lt ittle validation I have in myself. What she gives me, is that little nudge that says "yeah, we're crazy, but we still ARE and we don't hurt anyone. Maybe they don't get it, but the best part is that they don'have to."