Lana....if you're reading this...I miss you....

Conversations with Myself....Who the fuck am I?

I love the idea duality. Especially right now. Because my dual personalities are fighting. What I think about myself and who I am are duking it out. What I think about myself is all apart of what everyone else thinks about me, and who I am just doesn't have a fucking clue, it is something I have to come up with all my own.

Who I am is basically screwed, because I've based most of what I think about myself on what others think.

What I think about myself has a checklist of everything I need to change. Every reason why I'm wrong in logical order, chronologically.

Can I really be me if I am so worried about what other people think?

There's constructive criticism and there's letting other's ideals run your life. And I'm having a hard time differentiating between the two.

Who I am isn't wrong, it can't be, it's ME. But if I let what I think about be take too much control, won't I lose me?